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:O I feel like this was a season finale of a TV show. The photo of you crying and the Tate regurgitated words?! Heartbreaking! the video you linked is SPOT ON! Have you ever seen the Anime 'Nana'? There's one of the girls, Hachi, who falls for a famous musician and brings her 'puppy' attitude into the relationship just to be broken down into a shadow of herself until she is only 'a good wife and mother' and has to forego everything that was important to her (her love for small things, her friendships, her career dreams...)

I still think he was a closeted homosexual. Do we have any update on that?

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We do (it’s coming — but spoiler: he now has quite a number of children 🤣🤷🏻‍♀️). But yes, I very much was put in the role of child and naughty one at that which is never a good dynamic.

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I haven’t seen that anime but it sounds interesting. My baby sister is obsessed with anime and all things Japan.

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Everything that looks good on paper most of the time it is not in real life. Life is lived between people, we all have our baggage’s and energies, some people we are able to work with and others we are not. The one thing I am immensely thankful about is walking out on my marriage, because everyday reminds me how right I was walking out. Its one of the most disastrous event of my life, as a people pleaser I totally forgot who I was in that marriage and then on top being with a narcissist partner it just broke me in ways I couldn’t fathom, until I walked out 5 years ago and started my therapy. So hundred times yes, I have regained myself and this journey was worth it.

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I’m so glad. I feel the same way. I don’t think I’d have left but I was given a gift and sometimes I do wonder if my ex was a narcissist. 🤔 I was definitely a people pleaser too. So many women some conditioned to be that. 🙈

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The gift of life ❤️ thank you for writing this post. Reading your posts reminds me how sometime writing about the past with a distance can help. Another layer recovered.

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Thank you. That does mean a lot. 🫶🏻 it’s sometimes difficult to face and realise/accept/admit/heal from my own culpability in the past but equally it makes me ever so grateful for what I have now too. ❤️

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Thank you for this Elaine! There’s so many things I resonated with, yet again, but the GIF with ‘this is Benoit’s vision of what I do all day’ had me cracking up. 💞 (I love swimming too!)

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Thanks so much for reading. ❤️ That GIF is my dream life. 🤣 Constant “doing” isn’t healthy! Downtime is good. 🤪🙈

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